In the last summer, all I’ve seen is everyone I know (pretty much EVERYONE I know) getting either married or engaged (especially in my graduating class). This, I find, very disturbing. Why do I find it disturbing? Let me list the ways:
1) Many of these people have been dating for less time than I have been dating Alex (2.5 years). What exactly do these people have that I don’t have? More specifically, what is it that makes these people feel like they’re ready for such a huge commitment? What is it they feel that I don’t feel? How can you be ready for marriage at 22, with no steady job, no real income? Am I not secure enough in my relationship to feel this way? Now, I’m all for real love, but with divorce rate at 50% (that means 1 out of 2 marriages end), shouldn’t you be dating longer? Shouldn’t you be positive? If you’re going to stay together for the rest of your life, why are you rushing marriage?
2) I was not invited to any of these weddings. Now, this is fine, but I find it amusing as to how much time has flown since high school. I haven’t really talked to anyone since high school, and I guess I didn’t realize how distanced I am from everyone. And I only moved an hour and 15 minutes away. Maybe it was my immense desire to get the fuck away from Manhattan, KS. But, I don’t know. It’s very, …eye opening.
Now, I’m in no rush to get married (for all of the reasons I mentioned earlier, lack of financial stability, no real life plans, no job openings, still being in college etc etc), but maybe I would like to get everyone excited about my wedding, and getting married. Alex and I have a pretty definitive plan on getting married, engagement around 24, two year engagement (1 year for everyone-mostly families getting used to us getting married, 1 year to plan the wedding), but I don’t know. I want to feel special.